Update 2

Wow, time is surely flying by. I haven't done a great job with keeping up with this blog. My life has been so busy lately.

For starters, work continues to be a challenge. I'm still enjoying the job and the night schedule, but all I do is sleep all day long when I get home. It doesn't leave much time for cooking, cleaning, and spending time with my husband. Good thing the cop works at night, too. At least we can go to sleep together! I continue to learn more and more everyday at work. The nurses have come to know my work ethic, and they are learning to trust me. I remove lines, catheters, draw flushes, and participate in codes on a regular basis now. I've come a long way in 5 months. I was voted employee of the month this month...can you believe that? 5 months in, and I'm employee of the month. It is quite an honor! I hope I can live up to it. Most people at work now know that I will begin PA school in the spring. They are genuinely happy for me, I think. The hardest part for me is being 'just a tech.' As smart as the nurses think I am, I am nothing more than the tech that assists them. Sure, I can carry conversations with them, and they come to me and ask me questions, but I'm still just the tech. It's hard playing this role, especially when I am in such a great learning environment.

I'm blessed to be in a job that allows me to read the history, physical, labs and progress notes on every patient in the unit. Everyday I see something new, learn a new drug or disease. I am constantly writing in my notebook. The nurses let me ask them questions, and I peer over their shoulders as they start IV's and change dressings. As a tech, I don't think it gets any better than this. This is precisely what I need before going off to school.

Working in the ICU forces one to become intimately acquainted with death, also. From time to time I flip through the discharge notebook, and it amazes me how many patients we lose each week. I try to put myself in the mix of every code; I think it is important that I deal with death now rather than later. When I become the decision maker, I can't crack under the pressure just because I see someone dying before my eyes. On the other hand, I can't allow myself to become too cold, too rigid, that I lose my sense of empathy and compassion. It is a thin line to walk.

I've been working lots of hours lately for two reasons: to save money for school, and to surprise my husband with a weekend getaway for his 30th birthday. We depart today for 4 days in the mountains. The cop works way too hard. I really want to wow him and show him just how much he is appreciated and loved. If a cabin in the mountains, a personal chef and a day at the spa doesn't convince him, I don't know what will. We both need the rest, really. I can't wait to climb into that hot tub, sip Greek wine, read a book, watch the sunset, and stuff myself with as much birthday cake as I can. Might as well enjoy it...it will be over before we know it.

I have so many stories to share relating to work and the patients and medical staff I work with on a daily basis. Perhaps after this trip, my mind will be clear enough to begin blogging these stories. As of now, the mountains await us!